Four years ago a little angel entered my life. I held her tiny 5 Lb. 15 Oz. body in my arms, never realizing how she would turn my whole life upside down. I couldn't know the parade of doctors, specialist, and therapist we'd be seeing so much they became like family. No, what I saw was a blond haired, precious child, who had that sweet fresh baby smell. Sure, I knew something was wrong. I always knew from the day she was born, but I pushed those thoughts away and focused on the little life I'd created. She was and is perfect in every way.
Tomorrow we celebrate Nellie's fourth birthday and so much has happened in the past year. We have the answers we searched for, She starting to express herself, and form real relationships with people. Then there are the things that have never changed. Her smile still lights up my world and washes away all the bad things in life. Getting Nellie cuddles can warm the coldest of days, and when I look at her I know everything is so worth it.
Four year. It's hard to believe that is all it's been since she changed me, made me a better person. It's seemed like a lifetime. I don't know what tomorrow holds and yes, I know the risks, but I pray beyond anything to have another 80 years with her.
My birthday wish for Nellie is that she always keeps her innocence to the bad things in the world. That she never gets down, or allows people to make her feel less than what she is--perfect. Most of all I just want her to keep smiling. Through the pain, through the test, through everything I want her to keep that one thing that lights up my world.
Happy Birthday baby!
