Did I hear you right, Nellie?

Something amazing has happened!!!! Truly, truly amazing! Nellie is talking. I don't mean just words she's been saying words for a long time, but full sentences that make complete sense! Praise God I understand her!
It started when Nick Jr. went out the other day and she said Mommy, you have to fix this. Today while waiting for the bus she says Mommy, what happened to my tree? (the city cut it down). I said the tree went to Heaven with Grandpa. She says: Well lets go see it lol. This has been going on for three days! It's funny because she repeats the sentences three times and I am as excited the third time she says it than the first. I understand she could regress again, but I pray she don't. Her words are so clear and her meaning is getting across.
This all may seem so silly to get excited about, but for four years I have waited to see a glimpse of what my baby is thinking, to understand the things she tries to tell me. I'll take one or two sentences a day with more joy than if she were reciting physics!!!
I know now for sure God heard me Sunday. He knew I needed to see a miracle and did He ever provide me with one! I know this is a sign from Him that yes everything is going to be just fine!

What's lacking in our educational system

This question was running through my head last night and I think I have the answer...love!! Nellie has a teacher who adores her, really, really loves her and I believe in my heart this has made all the difference! Too many teachers now have forgotten they became teachers because they loved the job. They have been jaded by children who are disrespectful and parents who deny their children cause any trouble. You know the parents that say wasn't my kid, or the ones who make excuses, therefore teaching their children they can do and say whatever they want it's not their fault after all!
I have been very blessed that Nell's has ended up in a great school full of loving people and I wonder how our educational system as a whole would be if all teachers and staff were like the ones at Nell's school. I love the fact that when my child's hurt there is someone their to hug her, when she is tired there's someone there to smooth back her hair.
I know, I know they made it "forbidden" for teacher to hug heir students. Another thing that shows how our world has changed when we can't trust those who we trust with our children. It's a sad day in age also when a little boy steals a kiss and gets a sexual harassment suit! Still I believe there are more good, kind teachers out there than ones who have evil intentions and for me I say hug my children if they need it, scold them if they are bad. I have so much respect for teachers an pray above everything that all my children only know teachers who like Nell's truly love them!

Nellie you're gonna be a big sister again

I told the kids last night and was met with squeals of excitement. Nellie however when told there was a baby in mommy's belly lifted my shirt and pointed out the fact I have a belly button! I wonder if she'll have the same reaction to this baby as she did to Devony. The first thing she said was No touch it mommy lol

Me and the Lord, we have an understanding

Me and my dear friend have been shooting back and forth the Blues Brother's quotes lately. I find this quote to be more true in my life right now than any other. I truly feel right now like I do have an understanding with the Lord. An understanding is no more than a promise really. An example: I had an understanding with my neighbor that if she took out my garbage I'd walk her dog, we have an understanding.
God said to me and everyone really come lay your troubles on me, let me lessen your load. In return I want you to love Me, honor Me, and live by My word. He's kept his end. On the days I feel like I can't go on, when I haven't had a shower, forgotten to even eat, I go to Him. I say today's been rough, help me get through this and He does. Now I'm not saying that I don't cry. I have wept so much I thought for sure my eyes would go into drought mode and there was nothing left to fall from my eyes, but I turned to Him and He took my tears and wiped them away.
Tonight though I had an awaking, a really huge awakening. So huge in fact I find myself unable to sleep. I was praying and something came to me, something amazing happened. I was free!!!!! I was free of all my fear, pain, worries. God spoke to me and He told me Nellie's going to be fine, everything going on in your life is going to be fine. I gave and am still giving you gifts and you need to work with those gifts and form them into the plan I have set forth. I am thankful, glad, and even excited to accept these gifts and to have an understanding with God. I need to keep my end of the bargain though and make sure these gifts are used for His perfect plan!
To quote once more from the Blues Brother's: I'm on a mission from God!

The mystery that is you

All my other kids at four were very open with what they thought. Not Nellie though. I can see the little gears in her brain turning, but usually she just ends up telling me something about Sponge Bob or Buses. Nellie loves, loves, loves, buses. We cant go down a street and not have ever bus pointed out while she screams A BUS! Perhaps that is the extent of her worries in life, when she'll see the next bus. How bad could that be! Not terrorist attacks, fires, or illnesses, but simply buses.
There are many mysteries that are Nellie. Like how she can spin and spin and never get dizzy. Why she'll eat ketchup on a McDonald's hamburger, but if it's an anything else she acts like we are trying to poison her. Okay she does kind of get this from me, but my things onions. I can eat them on burgers, but nothing else. I wonder what she finds so fasinating in a spinning bike wheel that it can keep her attention for more than 5 minutes.
Yes, Nellie is a mystery as is the pyrimids, grand canyon. Amilia Earhart's plane. The many things in life that have boggled minds for centuries. She is a puzzle, but one I'm happy to sit and put together.

A poem "I understand"

The words you want to say won't come
and fustration sweeps across you face
You have so much you want to say
but it all gets lost along the way
I understand

I know that sometimes people scare you
and people look at you as though you're different
It's ok, there are many people who never will
but those that love you do
They understand

When you're hurt and come to me
I rub your arm
and you look at me
You know I wish I could take your pain away
You understand

When you look upon a bright blue sky
or watch the snowflakes fall
You know these are gifts from God
Just as you were to me
He understands

I know understanding isn't something everone has
and people will sometimes be mean
I know that as you grow kids will laugh at you
and not want to be your friend
They don't understand

But I do
Our family does
Our friends do
and most of all God does.
And in the end those are the people who matter!

There will be time to help so many
come to the point of understanding
If they take just a moment to see you for who you are
they will see everything you have to offer
Then they too will understand!

This is when I wish she could communicate better

My poor Nellie. As many know she has a problem with her foot that makes her walk on the side of it. Well wasn't she spinning in a circle's and fell down. I swear yesterday was the day for children's accidents. Just from a few of my friends yesterday I heard about a bloody lip, a broken arm, and a few scrapes and bruises. So anyway, back to the foot. She must have hit it on the end table when she went down because the only mark I could find was a slight indent on the top of her foot. She screamed though, and Nellie only cries if something really, really hurts.
I debated for an hour whether or not to take her to the er. It wasn't bruising or swelling so my heart told me no she'd be okay. I had someone else look and they said it looked fine too. Still she limped and said my foot, my foot. I tried to ask her to point to where it hurt (to figure out if it was her foot, ankle, heel etc), but to no avail.
These such times are when I wish she could tell me things more clearly. I'm so afraid of her being hurt and not being able to tell anyone where it is that is injured. Or God forbid she gets sick and can't show us where the pain is.
I will say I am getting better at the guessing game with her and if I point to something and say boo boo she will sometimes shake her head no. At least that does help narrow things down!